Lack of understanding.

In the past few months I've been on an emotional roller coaster. My neighbor and friend was diagnosed with leukemia. She is 34 with two small children. My friend, a 52 year old mother of three, passed away from breast cancer two weeks ago. Another friend, 32 year old mother of three (2 two-year old twins and a newborn), had a stroke last night.

I have known God all of my life. I have never questioned Him but I have to admit that I don't understand what is going on around me. It frightens me! My friend with leukemia almost passed away last year due to complications with her pregnancy. She survived only to be diagnosed a year later with leukemia. My friend with the newborn was sent home last week after her delivery feeling fine and then she has a stroke.

So many teens or unfit parents fare successfully without incident. Their bodies suffer more stress related to age or substance abuse but they come out fine. The mother of fourteen walked away unscathed after having eight children successfully. I don't question God but I sure can't comprehend why bad things happen to good people. Pardon the cliche but I don't.

My neighbor is currently in remission but still undergoing chemotherapy treatment. My other friend is in stable condition but her prognosis is unclear. My heart is heavy. My mind weary. The pain is overwhelming. This post is not to question God. I just needed to express my lack of understanding and hope to one day comprehend.

I will help as much as I can without complaint. I will continue to pray. I will see each day as a blessing and continue to live my life to the fullest. I am thankful for each day that I have with my family and friends. I will not take one second of my life for granted as I have truly witnessed how it can change in an instant!